Add to the Beauty

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Oh, the beauty of waking up and truly wanting to face the day!

January's been a very hard month for me this year. I know that my up and downs cycle in October, January and May, but this down has been a bad one. So, I keep plugging along, knowing that it will pass and life will come to mean something again, but it's such hard work. Ack! Last week was Jason's birthday. I think that I'm moving on and then #BAM# (insert picture of Emeril) those little anniversaries come and I'm right back at the beginning. Crying, looking at pictures, reading old letters. He would have been 41 this year.

So today, when I'm rolling over onto a cat and she goes screeching off into the kitchen, I'm thinking, "Hey, it's going to be a pretty good day." And that's when I know it's over and I'm back on track. Totally different from the "I can't get up. I don't want to face life." One of my friends says, "Oh, your lights are back on." Meaning that my mischevious sparkle is back. And I love my mischevious sparkle! I hate it when it goes away.

I mean, really. I hate it when sticking my toungue out just seems like a chore...

Here's to a great weekend! Cards and visiting tonight, meeting tomorrow morning, lunch with friends, nap - oh sweet, sweet nap, Pampered Chef party, yoga on Sunday, breakfast with friends, maybe - just maybe watch the Superbowl, and if not watch, then be the highly irritating one in the background going, "What are they doing now? How come they dropped the ball? What does THAT signal mean?" Yeah, no one likes to watch football with me. My lessons with Jason were just taking off. I was in the "I told you last time what the play was, just wait for the call before you ask me another *&^% question, okay honey? No really. I meant it when I said no more questions before the call. Oh, so you're going away mad? Hm. Good. I can watch it in peace." Yes, I was progressing....


Cello Mama said...

Hey, stranger. I saw your post on Carrie's blog and could tell it was you from your teeny tiny picture.

I'm so sorry to hear that you've had such a rough time the last couple of years, but I'm glad to hear that things are getting better and it's fun to see your blog!

Have a good one!

Meigan said...

Gotta take the bad days with the good days. Hang in there. I'm glad you can blog about stuff.

BTW, did you say you had 30 pounds to lose? Where, lady, where?? You look great! You haven't aged a bit since college!