Back in the Saddle Again

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Okay peoples. For the first time with this man, I wasn't totally apathetic that we were getting together, I was slightly anticipating it - so much so that I went to the club right after work so I wouldn't go home and freak the fuck out beforehand.

It was so nice and he's so nice and even though he pokes me on my politics, that's just so okay. We talked and talked and he met my cats and Ryan (which means I let him into my house, so now I'm super hoping that he's not psychokillerpantsman.) and then as we were chatting in the driveway? He went in for the hug. Yep. It was that whole, "I think he wants to hug me, do I want him to do that? Do I want to do that? Oh, he's putting his arms up. And then down. And my god, I think he's just totally agonizing overwhetherornottohugmerightnow. What do I do? Do I act like I want him to do it? I could cross my arms and that would mean no, but I think I DO want him to hug me, oh he's coming in. This is so awkward. He's so awkward and it's kind of nice that he is nervous about this and oh, he's not hugging hard like I like, and there, I hugged him back and he finally relaxed, oh, he's pulling away now. Yep. All done. AND he's smiling. Okay. I'm smiling too." Yep. That's the conversation going on in my head in about the ten seconds it took for him to decide to do it. And it was nice. I liked it. And he's coming over on Sunday to grill and have a backyard barbeque. Which means we'd be together when it gets dark out. That's never happened before. Maybe he'll try to kiss me? Okay, I'm going to stop thinking about it now, because then I WILL freak the fuck out and I kind of like enjoying what happened last night.

There you go internet. I think I'm dating again.

9 comments:

GreenCanary said...

Oh. Just reading this made my stomache jumpy. I don't think I'll ever be able to date again :-( But congrats to you! I'm so excited for you, girly!

Sweetly Single said...

WoooHoooo!!! Way to go girl!!

Malaise Inc said...

Dating was so exciting and awkward and fun and wrought with uncertainty and pain. I feel like I am going to throw up. But, if that is your thing, knock yourself out.

Seriously, have fun. Sounds like a far better option than Mr. 13th Step.

Arjewtino said...

Accidental dating. I hate it when that happens.

I once went out on an accidental date with a friend of my friends. We were an hour or two into the "date" when I realized we weren't just hanging out.

megkathleen said...

Wow - that conversation in your head? I have that same exact convo in my head when I start dating somebody.

Nilsa S. said...

Congrats. It's a great feeling, isn't it?!

Sara said...

Stay far, far away from Mr. 13th step! My vote is for Awkward Hug Guy. Let us know how date #4 goes.

Shania said...

Kate and new guy sitting in a tree, kay eye ess ess eye en gee! Hopefully

modernartifact said...

oh the fabulous awkwardness of getting to know someone in the dating way... it takes such bravery!