Therapy Tuesday
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I took the day off from work today. Since my mother is getting her children home all at once with grandma tomorrow, I finished up my Christmas shopping so that I can pass gifts along. I LOVE giving gifts. I HATE standing in the line at the post office. This will be the first Thanksgiving (or any holiday for that matter) that we have all been together in a long, long time. At least six years, if I recall correctly. My church job, my sister's distance, my sister in law's family, the drinking and the dying all got in the way. So, we're giving this holiday a try. Who knows how it will turn out? Plus, my little heart got broken. Shopping fixes that, right?
This Therapy Tuesday turned out to be one of the best I've had in a long time.
"So, he got pedestal status pretty damn quick, huh?"
Me looking into the corner, because looking her in the eye just doesn't work when we're talking hard stuff. And thinking, what the hell? We've been working on taking Jason off the pedestal for three years now. How does she know 3.0 got there so quick? "Yep."
"How'd he earn that? By showing you a little kindness and respect? Opening some doors?"
Yep.
"What do you think about perhaps adding a few more criteria for pedestal status?"
Why does she have to be right all the time? I get it! I get it already. Why I have to go see her every week for things like this to finally sink in, I don't know. But for now? I don't question it. It's situations like this that my history of more than four years with her allows her to say things like that and for it to make sense.
So I went and had coffee with M and we laughed about my willingness to put aside my growth, dignity and recovery for the hands of a man that paid for dinner. Then I went shopping and took a nap. It doesn't get any better than that today.
This Therapy Tuesday turned out to be one of the best I've had in a long time.
"So, he got pedestal status pretty damn quick, huh?"
Me looking into the corner, because looking her in the eye just doesn't work when we're talking hard stuff. And thinking, what the hell? We've been working on taking Jason off the pedestal for three years now. How does she know 3.0 got there so quick? "Yep."
"How'd he earn that? By showing you a little kindness and respect? Opening some doors?"
Yep.
"What do you think about perhaps adding a few more criteria for pedestal status?"
Why does she have to be right all the time? I get it! I get it already. Why I have to go see her every week for things like this to finally sink in, I don't know. But for now? I don't question it. It's situations like this that my history of more than four years with her allows her to say things like that and for it to make sense.
So I went and had coffee with M and we laughed about my willingness to put aside my growth, dignity and recovery for the hands of a man that paid for dinner. Then I went shopping and took a nap. It doesn't get any better than that today.
7 comments:
Well, look at it this way... the lies in your mind didn't set up residence overnight and the truth is oftentimes harder to believe so it takes longer to take root.
Have a Happy Holiday!
Mind if I buy you dinner?
Have a great holiday with your family!!!
I'm buying sock yarn for myself today.
So I can have my own Happy Feet Friday.
Happy Thanksgiving!
See, it's posts like this that make me enjoy reading your blog. You are an inspiration and stuff.
And don't think you're the only chick who puts dudes on pedestals too quickly. I've done it before - crap, I've done the whole "and then we'll get married and here's our kids' names" and stuff becaues you're just so perfect on like a third date. LOL Keep your chin up because you rock!!!!!!
The self mailing kiosk in the post office that all the old peeps are afraid of is the single greatest invention of our lifetime.
It sounds like you had an excellent day, and a really great Therapy Tuesday!
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