Back to Basics
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So, my sleep has been all kinds of messed up lately. Part of it is because I still have the monkey plague. Going on four weeks now. Since I had meningitis a couple years ago, when I get sick, it just hangs on. Part of it is because I've messed up my routine.
I thrive on routine, people. THRIVE. When I first got sober, I knew exactly what I was going to do every minute of the day and if I got "off," I just called someone who knew my routine and they'd help me get back on. I'm much better now at going with the flow, but when things get a little rocky, I know that going back to basics is the best thing for me.
So, like a good little girl, I left dancing at 10:15 (fifteen minutes longer than I intended, but I wanted to dance. DANCE, people. DANCE.) went home and got into my pajamas, brushed my teeth, washed my face and settled in my chair with a book and a cup of sleepytime tea. NOTHING DOING. I was not asleep until one in the morning and then I woke up at four, like I always do. I know it will take several nights of my routine to get me back in synch, but it's torture. Seriously, they use sleep deprivation to get confessions out of people. I'd say pretty much anything to anyone at this point to get a good night's sleep. Good Lord.
I thrive on routine, people. THRIVE. When I first got sober, I knew exactly what I was going to do every minute of the day and if I got "off," I just called someone who knew my routine and they'd help me get back on. I'm much better now at going with the flow, but when things get a little rocky, I know that going back to basics is the best thing for me.
So, like a good little girl, I left dancing at 10:15 (fifteen minutes longer than I intended, but I wanted to dance. DANCE, people. DANCE.) went home and got into my pajamas, brushed my teeth, washed my face and settled in my chair with a book and a cup of sleepytime tea. NOTHING DOING. I was not asleep until one in the morning and then I woke up at four, like I always do. I know it will take several nights of my routine to get me back in synch, but it's torture. Seriously, they use sleep deprivation to get confessions out of people. I'd say pretty much anything to anyone at this point to get a good night's sleep. Good Lord.
6 comments:
i get the routine thing. mine happens in the morning. without it, the day is an uphill climb. hope you get some rest.
Yuck! And I thought my 5-6 hours weren't enough!
I used to love my "ruts" as I called them when I was in early recovery. Now I enjoy getting out of my comfort zone. Addicts, what a bunch we are!!
Here's to getting back on track, my dear.
NO ONE wants to hear me on little sleep. I could get arrested for the things I say. It's never anything normal and I think that's why Hubster takes the opportunty to talk to me then. I'm his entertainment!
What a bummer. Sometimes, when I don't get home until close to bedtime, I'm too hyped up to fall asleep. Even if I'm really tired. It always takes a little time to wind down. Sigh...
I feel your pain. I've fallen off my sleep patter routine too and boy do I miss it. I'm taking this pill my mom recommended and it seems to get me to sleep through the night, but the other day I read the fine print and it's usually taken to control anxiety as a depressant and it can be addictive. Ok, that freaked me out. So my plan is to use it for a while, until I get a hang of sleeping through the entire night again, or until I finish the conference thing and go home. Everything will be better then stress wise and I know that's was keeping up. So here's to good night sleep and may we both have it soon enough!
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