Giving Up

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If you've been following for any amount of time, you know I've not been feeling the best. I had some more blood work done today and my meningitis has not abated. Again, I'm not catching. It's just the exhaustion and the inability to recover if I keep running myself into the ground that's keeping me stuck.

I'm going to the hospital tonight for an IV for fluids and pain, and Gay Boyfriend is accompanying me to drive me home when all is said and done. I didn't want it to come to this. I tried so very hard to keep it under control by getting enough sleep, going only to work and meetings if I had to. But my doctor is very wary of it continuing.

I hate it. I hate being sick. And I hate feeling this vulnerable. I know it will pass. And I KNOW I will get better, but tonight, I feel like this is giving up the fight. I also know that if I don't go, I'll end up hospitalized and that's worse. So much worse.

8 comments:

Mr. Condescending said...

I hope you get better super quick :(

Dingo said...

Feel better soon, girlie!

Sweetly Single said...

IF I have to drag my sick/balding ass down there to take care of you ......

Ok seriously.... I hope you feel better dearest friend....we need ya with us! and ps vulnerable is ok...because it reminds us that we don't have to do everything

lacochran said...

Wishing you a speedy and complete recovery.

*Akilah Sakai* said...

Sorry you aren't getting better much quicker. Hope the IV does its job and you heal up soon.

Jen said...

Sending you get well soon thoughts. Hope they work!

Summer said...

I'm sending tons of positive thoughts and prayers your way. Get your much needed rest, Sweetie. Keep us posted on your recovery.

BrianAlt said...

I hope you're feeling better. Make sure to keep us up to date.