New Life

If you've been following for any amount of time, you know I've not been feeling the best. I had some more blood work done today and my meningitis has not abated. Again, I'm not catching. It's just the exhaustion and the inability to recover if I keep running myself into the ground that's keeping me stuck.

I'm going to the hospital tonight for an IV for fluids and pain, and Gay Boyfriend is accompanying me to drive me home when all is said and done. I didn't want it to come to this. I tried so very hard to keep it under control by getting enough sleep, going only to work and meetings if I had to. But my doctor is very wary of it continuing.

I hate it. I hate being sick. And I hate feeling this vulnerable. I know it will pass. And I KNOW I will get better, but tonight, I feel like this is giving up the fight. I also know that if I don't go, I'll end up hospitalized and that's worse. So much worse.