New Life

I'm back! I can't write about my weekend just yet. I have too much to tell you and not enough time this morning. But I will tell you this.

Last night, I went to bed around 7 p.m. After staying up until three in the morning Saturday night to dance, dance, dance, I was just a wee bit exhausted. It felt so good to be in my own bed, kitties on either side, pillows placed *just right* behind and in front and under my head. I smiled and relaxed into the mattress and I felt it. His arms around me. And I snuggled into them and started talking to him. I told him all about my weekend and about how much fun I was having. I told him about my new job and about my new baby nephew and how happy I was. He only stayed for a little while, but for the first time? I did not beg him to take me back with him - wherever it is that he goes when he leaves me. I told him that I thought maybe I wanted to stick around here for awhile and see what happens. I could almost - just barely - feel him nodding his head behind me. And then he was gone. And I didn't ache the way I usually do. I was sad, but still so happy from the weekend, that just a quick twinge of sadness passed and then I went back to remembering how much fun I'm having here on this earth.

I am surprised about this turn of events. But I'm not disappointed. In fact, it's kind of liberating. And I like it.