So, this project that I'm doing that might lead to a different career? I'm helping to write a grant. I've always thought I'd be good at it, but never really knew how to proceed with actually DOING it. Earlier this summer, I was at Dog Boy and Girl's house for a bonfire and I met someone who has done freelance grant writing in the past. I mentioned in passing that I might be interested in doing that. He of course, exclaimed that this community was definitely lacking in grant writers and if I wanted, he could give me several clients off the top of his head right then and there. And well? He didn't really take me seriously until I called him a couple weeks ago to ask him about it. Because research and writing? Hello?! Love. It. The timing must have been perfect because two days later he called and said that his current employer needed to write a grant and he asked them if I could write parts of it under his direction and they of course, said YES. Because most of them know me anyway. So yeah me, right? I'm not getting paid to do it, but he's teaching me and I'd call that a fair trade at the moment.
Well. I met with him last week, he gave me my assignment, and even though he gave me until next Monday to do it, I'll have it all ready to email him tomorrow morning. I spent yesterday afternoon researching and delving into the internet and journals and printing and highlighting and APA styling and it felt awesome. To use my brain again. I felt like a freaking rock star. I felt smart. And confident. And competent. And powerful. It was a feeling I haven't felt for a long time. And I used to feel like that ALL the time. Because I AM all those things, I just forget it because I'm so unchallenged in my current work. The feeling lasted all night long. I sat in my meeting, smiling to myself. Content and happy with my world. What a great feeling. I want more of it.