I start my new job today. TODAY! I hardly slept last night and even though this job starts an hour later than my previous job, I got up extra early because I just couldn't lay in bed any longer. I texted Cowgirl last night and said, "I'm getting nervous." And she said, "It could be excitement and anticipation. That feels the same as nervous, you know." Which - yes. They do. Of all the things I've worked on and conquered, I still have trouble naming emotions for what they really are. Like how I cry when I'm angry and think that I'm sad, but really, I'm just pissed as hell and can't find a way to express it.
So, I'm going to call it anticipation.
Now please excuse me while I go shower and convince myself that I really am capable of taking this next big step in my life.