I don't know what to write, really. I want to write. I do. But something is keeping me from it. I don't know if it's self-pity, tiredness, writer's block or what. I'm angry. I know that. That's a big step for me, to know and acknowledge that. My blog has been full of anger for quite some time now. I don't know how to stop it, other than to write about it, and yet, writing is not coming to me. I have written a lot of things that do not show up here. It's too personal; it's too painful. But I'm writing. And I know that is the key for my sanity right now. But I miss you, my internet friends. I can't write right now. And that is a problem. Because writing orders my life and my feelings. I'm at a loss. Any suggestions?