Writing at a Loss

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I don't know what to write, really. I want to write. I do. But something is keeping me from it. I don't know if it's self-pity, tiredness, writer's block or what. I'm angry. I know that. That's a big step for me, to know and acknowledge that. My blog has been full of anger for quite some time now. I don't know how to stop it, other than to write about it, and yet, writing is not coming to me. I have written a lot of things that do not show up here. It's too personal; it's too painful. But I'm writing. And I know that is the key for my sanity right now. But I miss you, my internet friends. I can't write right now. And that is a problem. Because writing orders my life and my feelings. I'm at a loss. Any suggestions?

11 comments:

Sarita said...

I'm glad you keep writing. Sometimes I write what I wish I could share on the blog and email it to the people I trust. It isn't out there the way a blog would be, but I get the feedback I need.

Jen said...

I so understand. I'm going through something like this too, with the writing and with the blog. I write to vent, to sort things out, to understand, but sometimes it's just too personal and others it's part of a process that would not make sense in the blog. But then I miss contact with people through the comments, and I write, but I feel like I'm cheating readers from the juice, since I just post superficial stuff... I say, do whatever works for you. What else can you do but that? Hugs.

Sue Ellen Mishkey said...

Get in the car. Drive to a relatively secluded place. Park. Scream. As loud as you can for as long as you need to. Sometimes it's good to get it out when you can't articulate it (or don't want to).

Good luck and be strong.

Ink Spiller said...

It's frustrating not being able to write especially if you tend to use it as "your voice".

Take care! You know already that you have a bunch of people out here wishing you all the best, right?

RichardC said...

I so get this!

Keep it up Kate, I love reading about your victories!

Lemon Gloria said...

I think it's helpful to keep writing even if you're not sharing it. For me, it gets some of the venom out and helps to organize thoughts and emotions.

melissalion said...

Maybe just take pictures and post those?

carrster said...

I hear you. But you know what? It ebbs & flows. It comes & goes. Continue to be true to yourself, your very strong, funny, wonderful self & it'll all work out okay.

Sarita - if you ever need someone to read those emails, let me know!

Kelly Hogaboom said...

Sometimes when I write something so raw and vulnerable on my blog I simply disable comments. It leaves me freer to write. I kept a blog for years with no comments whatsoever and that was a good thing.

Other than that, I sent you an email. I hope you don't suffer unduly or too much longer. You've found yourself help and solutions so well and you'll find it soon here, too.

Sparkling Red said...

I've been there. In fact oftentimes when I'm not posting it's because I just can't get my head straight to do so. Sometimes when even writing is an effort, I talk to myself. No obligation to use full sentences. Just say words, and let my body act out some of what I'm feeling (curl up, hit a pillow, etc). Sometimes, when it feels right, that does the trick.

GreenCanary said...

Hola, my sweet Katie McKaterson. 'Tis I, your fellow non-writing blogger, GreenCanary. As always, you and me are two very sexy peas in a very sexy (non-writing) pod. I don't know what to write, either. I've been writing a lot that hasn't shown up, either. And I, too, am at a loss. I have no advice except to tell you to GET YOUR SWEET ASS TO BALTIMORE AND COME VISIT ME! P.S. Send me your new address when you have it. I've been making something for you! :-) P.P.S. I love commenter Kelly Hogaboom's last name! LOVE IT!