It's Finally Here!
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I'm going camping right after work! I'm so excited! This trip has been planned since the dark, dark days of winter. I've got the car packed, the food is in the refrigerator at work and all I have to do is cash a check and pick up some smokes on the way out of town and then - freedom! I think I might even turn off my cell phone. (*gasp*). I've had it with the crazies around here for the time being. And even though I'm going camping with some other crazies, at least they're a different kind of crazy!
I have been thinking about whether or not I want to put something on Jason's grave marker for Memorial Day. He's not really "there." His urns (two - he didn't fit in one - ha!) are at his Dad's house still. And yet? I don't know. I just don't know. It was always Jason's job to take flowers for holidays since his step-mother is there as well. It was a love/hate responsibility. And I get what that means today. The pain is so much less since I let it all go, and yet the remembering is still there. Just one more step to take I guess.
I have been thinking about whether or not I want to put something on Jason's grave marker for Memorial Day. He's not really "there." His urns (two - he didn't fit in one - ha!) are at his Dad's house still. And yet? I don't know. I just don't know. It was always Jason's job to take flowers for holidays since his step-mother is there as well. It was a love/hate responsibility. And I get what that means today. The pain is so much less since I let it all go, and yet the remembering is still there. Just one more step to take I guess.
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Happy camping! This weekend is my birthday party weekend out in the country. My friends are all traveling to Virginia to spend the whole weekend with me! Barbecuing and swimming in the pond! Chillin' in the hammock! Sittin' in the grass! I'm so amped for it.
You have been putting the flowers there all year long. I just found your blog and in looking around I see all the bouquets you have left for Jason. You have remembered him gently and well. You deserve some fun camping and a little personal celebrating this weekend....
I can't get past the "turn my cell phone off" line. What is this strange language you're speaking?
camping. fun.
my 2 cents: do what you need to do for yourself regarding the flowers. it you need to do it for your remembering, do it, but don't do it because of obligation or someone else's opinion.
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