Happy Feet Friday

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I'm glad to report that this Happy Feet Friday does not make me want to stab people in the eyeballs with a meat thermometer. Whatever slump I was in, is slowly passing. And I would like to say that it has to do with exercising more. I mean - people TELL you that you'll feel better emotionally - if not physically - when you start exercising, but well - I don't LISTEN very well. Suffice it to say that I think I have been sleeping better and my attitude about life is slowly but surely coming back around to the place where I think getting up in the morning is worth it. I'm not headed back to the abyss anytime soon, and it's nice to know that I'm farther and farther away from it today - even on my bad days. Standing on the edge, looking down and pondering whether or not to just jump in is a bad, bad place for me to be. And I celebrate that this last trek backwards didn't even take me near the hole. So yeah me! And yeah exercising! And yeah that I have a slammin' pink crocodile gym bag. Even Dax likes it.

The Good Cook sent me a book about running. It's the Complete Book of Running by Runner's World. And it tells me that I have to walk for eight days straight before I get to run. Walk for 20 minutes a day for the first four days, then 30 minutes a day for the next four days. And I like to walk for 30 minutes, so I ignored the 20 minutes a day thing and I'm going for 30 minutes a day until I get eight days straight. And since I was so slumpy slacker and depressed earlier this week, I didn't go until Wednesday. So I have two days of walking in. But I'm determined. Finally. So determined, that last night, I got off work at 5, rushed to the gym, walked for 30 minutes, rushed home, took a quick shower and got dressed and make-uped and curled hair and everything before I met with one of my clients for my part time job at 7. I AM DEDICATED PEOPLE. DEDICATED. DO YOU HEAR ME? I WILL DO THIS THING!

One of the things that Carolyn tells me over and over is that people continue in negative behavior until it becomes too painful to NOT change. I get that. Sometimes you have to get to a place where you're thoroughly beaten down, disgusted, ashamed, frustrated, whatever feeling you have times a million, before you make a decision to change. When I got sober, I remember my recovery dad saying to me, "Just make a decision Kate. Make a decision. If it's the wrong one, you can change it later. But just make it. Then you can go forward." And I get to tell people that today. Because it's true. I made a decision to be a runner. And that decision means that I will give it all I've got. If it doesn't work out, then I make a new decision. But for now? I've decided. And that means I move forward. Right? Of course right.

17 comments:

buffalodick said...

I have a book by Jim Fixx- a big runner in his day..died of a heart attack in his 40's while running!

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

That's one hot pink gym bag - love it!

Do you read Runner's World? Have you heard of John Bingham? He's also known as the Penguin and his motto is "waddle on" (just like his website: http://www.waddle-on.com).

You might like what he writes about running. It's all about making running available to everyday people. When I was at the height of my marathoning, I always loved reading his columns because he made me less anxious about my achieving my goals.

artemisia said...

YAY, YAY, YAY, YAY!!!! Oh, this post makes me so HAPPY!!

Happy Feet, indeed!

Good work, lady. My gym bag is a plastic Wal Mart bag. Perhaps that is why I am not going?

melissalion said...

I like that. Make a decision. And I totally understand about doing something until it becomes so painful you have no other choice to change it. New Life. NEW LIFE.

The Good Cook said...

Go Kate... On, On..

;-)

Conspiracy Theologian said...

"Just make a decision Kate. Make a decision. If it's the wrong one, you can change it later. But just make it. Then you can go forward."

Love this advice. My sponsor/guru/spiritual adviser pushes me the same way.

lacochran said...

Right!

Ink Spiller said...

I think Dax wants to move into your pink crocodile gym bag, as cats do.

Kristin said...

Definitely right!

Jen said...

Good for you for making that decision. You will do great, I just know it. And thank you for sharing that little gem of advice. I needed a little butt kicking in the decision making department today, and it help tons. Thanks!

justme said...

you will do it! you are doing it so right! keep it up

Josephine said...
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Josephine said...

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This is such a yay-post! Good that running works for you, but personally I don't understand it; you know I tried running a while ago, not in the gym but simply outside, and after two attempts I was like "nah, I'll just exercise indoors." End o' story I didn't exercise indoors anymore either, I guess it's just not my thing. I do cycle a lot, my form of running I suppose, although I won't go out just for cycling purposes. But hey, now that the weather has softened I take my bike almost every time I go out, so that's a lot more time spent on cycling than I would have done on going to the gym. Must be good for something.

Anyway, yay again and by the way, I'm wondering: do you ever go out dancing?

G said...

I'm much the same way when I do my walking. I find that usually when I finish, I do feel rejuvenated and less stressed than when I first started.

clearness said...

You mentioned 'runners world' and I had to laugh because I don't know why, but I get mail from them sometimes. The first time I got their mail my husband almost passed out in a fit of laughter. Because I don't run.....ever. If you ever see me running call 911 because it's serious....VERY.

clearness said...

You mentioned 'runners world' and I had to laugh because I don't know why, but I get mail from them sometimes. The first time I got their mail my husband almost passed out in a fit of laughter. Because I don't run.....ever. If you ever see me running call 911 because it's serious....VERY.

bustysatan said...

I work out for my mental health more than my physical health. Totally.