You all told me I was so pretty with wind blown hair and no makeup that I changed my profile picture. Thanks for the compliments. I do believe I am most happy when I am at my most natural; sunburned, wind scarred and tired.
There is trouble afoot in Kate's paradise. It's not my trouble, but because I love the people involved, it concerns me and it makes me sad and anxious. I listen. That is my job. Listening. And I'm good at it today. I used to be so very self absorbed, that I couldn't really hear what another person was saying. But today, I take it all in. I hear it. I feel it, and I give my best response to it. And it hurts me that people in my life feel pain. I know that's normal. And for God's sake. Being able to put myself out of the picture and feel someone else's hurt is a blessing to me. It means I am a truly compassionate human being - of which I was nothing of the sort three years ago.
But pain - no matter it's form - has to run it's course. And pain is just that. Pain. Hurt. Agony. And there's nothing I can do to make it's path diminish. We have to walk through whatever life hands us. And it's up to us to make the decision to do it with self-esteem and valor and not defeat and addiction. In the meantime, I hold my own. Because if I stay my own course, I am most helpful to other people.