I just want you to know that things are better. Not good, but better. I'm still isolating. Still lonely. Still confused. But I'm okay. And the fact that I KNOW I will be okay is the best part of it all. I am doing the right actions to take care of myself, and that's the important part.
I am going to school next week. Excited, but scared. I haven't taken a class in many, many years. I drove there today to make sure I knew where I was going. I have read my book, I have a new notebook. Because that's what you do, right? But scared. Was not anticipating that. I'm a good student. And I love learning, so this momentary panic is unfamiliar.
Sigh. I don't know what else to tell you other than I'm doing the next right things and I'm hoping for the best. Because that's all I can do.